Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Work is getting better
Today was a very fun day.
I know what to do in the kitchen. x]
Anyways. I've decided to start anew so yea i need time alone.
Today the head chef talked to me.Dont know what he trying to prove la.
Paul get a book and jolt these down if you wanna be a chef like me.
Den he gave me that "gay" smile LOL.
What can i say?I told him i'll see how.
Den he said you've to remember if you dont jolt down.
Whatevaaa i can remember x]]
Okays.Now just to take it easy.
Than i today met lynn.
She's quite tall. Passed her a pack of salmon ( PLEASE DONT ASK ME HOW I GOT IT )
And ask her to celebrate her mom's birthday happily.
Since she comes from a poor family i've decided to help her x]]
See i so nice xD
Called Pauline, Victoria . Both also never pick my call. The rest of my day is spent in hope that it would be fun
When i'm alone memories of the past haunt me
Memories fill me with sadness.
Memories fill me with alot of other crap.
Thoughts run through my mind.
Filled with stress and agony.
What is it that i'm waiting for or doing?
There's more to life is there?
Why does everything seem to be at its limits?
I've realised some of my limits.
But is knowing how good how bad how extreme things can be enough?
What are you doing about it.
Hiaz. I'm just gonna stone.
But i need to make a move and take some action.
But i'm scared at times and dont know where or how to start.
Sianzations sadness overwhelms me again.
Emo-ing.
):<
Ravey blogged @ 9/30/2008 10:04:00 PM
Monday, September 29, 2008
Emoing
Slowly its fading.
The passion.
The lust.
The want of a girl and a companion.
Maybe not even a friend.
At work they said i'll be working solo.
Guess that means alone..
I'm alone..
So lets pick between alone or friends.
Somone once told me before. You can only rely on yourself.
Another one said. friends double ur joy and divide your sorrow.
But somehow i dont find both good sources.
I cant rely on myself in everything.
Neither can my friends double and divide my sorrow.
So i can only rely on myself cant I?
What should i do...
Alone..Boredrem.Just stoning working w/o meaning earning money thinking of helping people?
Somehow i think my life's going to change drastically.
But yet somehow i feel abit confident and yet sorrowful.
Just let things be la.
Let things end.Leave it all to fate and "nature"
Be responsible of yourself.Myself.
You'll always have yourself.
Emo-ing again.
Why must i keep thinking of such unpleasent thoughts.
Such memories cant fade.
The hurt wont go.
The past wont leave.
The present is a torture.
And the future is my fear.
Ravey blogged @ 9/29/2008 09:31:00 PM
Today.
Today was good x]]
Work was good apart from the end.
Hiaz what can i say.. =/
Hmm just that i really enjoyed myself.
I'm slowly starting to adapt to morning lifestyle
Waking up at 530 daily -.-
Anyways work was quite easy i know what to do le x]]
Still got somethings i'm unsure off though -.-
Anyways they're putting me full time there!??!
And i only work there for like 4 DAYS?!
Whats worse still is that they're sacking people and keeping me.
Hiaz i wish they sacked me instead =x
Why does everyone says I've potential
Hiaz.
Anyways that was okay la.
The #$&^-ing technical problems and admin problems are those that piss me off.
I've worked for 4 days.
ALL FREAKING 4 DAYS i've to get my stupid pay altered.
I end at 3 i leave at like 5.o2pm -.-
Nvr minds den i listen to my songs x]]
Hiaz they're the most motivating things EVAAA~.
Move along Move along Just to make it through~
The thing is that you must always pick yourself up and have the courage to step into a situation you know you can do but just fear.
But somehow over love.Over relationships.
Why do i fear? Is it because i fear or breakups?
Fear hurting the one i love? Or what do i really worry about?
Devotion? Clashing with my jobs etc?
What is it... I don't know what am i running or hiding from.
When i judge and classify everyone as equal. People who are better prove me wrong.
But when i judge others they let me down.
So what should i do and who should i trust?
Do we only know things once we've lost them?
And only treat them as casually because they're always there?
Why does everything have to be hopeless b4 we really realise things.
What should i do.What's the right thing to do.
Follow my heart?Follow fate?Or just follow the wind?
Ravey
Lost at the junction of life again
Ravey blogged @ 9/29/2008 05:24:00 PM
Yesterday
Woke up at 540 today.
Ravey has better timing and better grasp of his environment now.
Yesterday was a good day x]
Had clear and simple instructions and very slack'y job.
But the guy that was "incharge" of me was the same name as my father.
Kinda pissed me off abit.
But he's a v nice guy.
Oh wells what can i say =/
Worked extra hours.
Ended at 5. o.0
Today gg to work le.
Hope that i know what to do in between.
Hope that i've clear instructions and be taught of how to do the stupid condiments.
Anyone knows of any 6++ night jobs?
Apart from bars and pubs.
I'm still underage =/
But for now i shall just prepare.
Still thinking of what i should and should not do.
Now when was Serena's birthday again -.-
Okay i'm late.
I'll try to blog regularly =/
Tired.
Ravey blogged @ 9/29/2008 05:50:00 AM
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Harsh
I woke up at 5.30 FLAT this morning.
Bathed
Sheesh My room was like a fridge
I hid in my blanket. xD
Realised it was still early.
Sat in my living room and "rested" "slept"
Left house at 6am Sharp.
Okayyy I'm tired -.-
Went to work today. Worse still.
I want to help also cannot
People scared i make the same mistakes again.
Ravey wants to try! Ravey wants to learn.
Yet you wont let him know where everything is.
Yet you think he knows everything.
And you expect him to know everything
I'm sorry that i was like an extra standing around today at work.
Being like an extra. I dont even know anything w/o experience.
Nvr mind i had it cool.
At 3pm i was supposed to be off work.
But i had some screw up's with the stupid pineapple.
Cant cut it right.
Than i was held back till 4pm.
Well~ at least it was not that bad people helped me out.
Taught me how to do things better.
Or rather i've to remember.
At 4 i called leslie for lan.
He said only 2 hours-3 hours later.
Forget it i'm going home.
As much as i want to be a friend and go keep him company and stuff.
I've limitations to my expenditure and physical well being.
I'm sick and tired.
Jaslyn TNG what the hell are you thinking LOLS.
Okay i shall now officially declare we shouldn't play anymore -.-
The word love has alot of meaning to me.
Its bothering me x]
Okay i'm taking it cool.
I need a break.
I'm sorry Leslie but i'm moving on and if my lan gaming life has to be given up.
If i've to give my friends up i might...
Work is not 1st priority though.
Its just a responsibility..
Slept away my afternoon.
Slept away my evening.
Going to sleep my night away.
I'm working tomorrow too.
Ravey blogged @ 9/27/2008 08:56:00 PM
Friday, September 26, 2008
A boring evening
I stoned my evening away.
Nothing out the extraordinary
Life is boring as usual.
If only i was working.
DAM i talked to charmaine today.
Hehs i seriously cant help it shes just soo Great to talk to.
Online chatted with Jaslyn Tng.
She was like "flirting" with me LOL.
So dam freaking lame la Using me to get someone who likes her to not like her?
Hiaz kids -.-
Lets not divert our attention shall we?
Love with our hearts not by our wants.
F1 was on TV today. Kinda cool the speed and everything.
Though i'm not really into speed and such really.
Talking to victoria and about how i Hooked my job.
Still find it very wacko LOLs.
But i'm going to work hard.
Its for a new beginning afterall ain't it?
Hiaz i need to sleep.. Got to wake up early tomorrow.
I wish i could talk to Charmaine.
Good luck to me.
It'll be a long day tomorrow.
Chef Ravey in the making.
I would like to be a all rounded loving husband or lover.
If i dont live that long?
At least i know i've had my fun in life doing so many weird and wack things.
I did like to thank everyone that's helped me in my life.
And for all these oppurtunities that are offered and given to me.
I'm just a kid.
I'm just 17 x]]
Ravey blogged @ 9/26/2008 11:32:00 PM
1st day at work
Rained heavily this morning.
It was really nice weather. <3 the rain <3 rain so much.
Anyways rain is a EMO weather x]] my fav xD
Walked in the rain x]
Went to work early.
Admin got problem with my time in and out problem.
But it was solved none the less.
I'm working 7-6pm tomorrow. Time passes quite fast there.
Hahas one more thing =/ I cleaned the freezer today. So cool x]
Better than snow city LOL.
Now i know how a frozen chicken feels like.Lols
I look so cool wearing that chef dressing la.
And i feel so friggin noob in the kitchen as well.
They serve like 8 kinds of cheese and alot of other kinds of variety of stuff and seriously?
I'm noob -.- from arranging the stuff to remembering where things belong?
Sighs.
Nvm! I'LL PERSIST AND PERSERVERE.
Morgan -> a Caucasian guy told me alot about working.
And its really motivating.
Keep your head high and continue doing your best and your part.
And nothing will go wrong.
And FOUR seasons hotel like really 4 seasons sia.
Kitchen hot like hell.
Chillers cold like ice.
At least they've good staff facilities. x]
With my wet clothes i could not go job hunting and doing what i want to do.
Message so many people yet so few reply.
Don't know who to talk to also.
Everyone's so busy.
What more can i say or do?
I'm a loner to begin with and end with.
I'll consider blogging later
Till than~
Ravey blogged @ 9/26/2008 04:28:00 PM
Morning already
Good morning earth x]
Good morning everyone :D
Today woke up extremely early -.-
Tested my alarm and such.Awoke at 445 am - 5 mins due to my hp being 5 mins fast
Did some stupid thinking.
Bus only start at 6.05.
Mrt only start at 5.30++ or later i don't know.
Hahas anyways slept abit longer and woke at 5.20.
Showered changed did a list of things i wanted to do. x]
Went out have water and milo powder o.0?
Hahs tasted refreshing anyways. Looked at the time its still too early to leave.
So i've decided to come to my blog. My online world to take a look~.
But as expected i'm here blogging and probably talking to myself again. =X!
Just kidding x]] Everyone JY in school!
People taking N's JY. People taking O's and A's or any other stupid exams.=x
Please study hard and don't regret.
Seriously.
Hahas. I've got to leave soon.Working till 3 and probably going to job hunt.
I'm now a very "busy person". Sorry to those who want to contact me x]
But who does anyways =/
Ravey's Off To work!~
Ravey blogged @ 9/26/2008 05:45:00 AM
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Reponsibilities and The past
Today i woke up early wanted to go down to NYDC to help WeiJie out
As i promised him i would help if i could.
But apparently IT WAS YESTERDAY.
Waste my time + my sleep.
Realised a few more things today.
Wells i don't wish to mention them here.
Anyways i've made a personal promise to myself.
I've to move along.
I'm leaving NYDC behind me.
I'm forgetting the past.
Its all over already.
Thanks Hilda for your cheesecake
Today went for my "CHEF" job interview.
Got the job. I'm starting tomorrow at 7am.
Four seasons hotel.But its all in the morning shifts only.
I'm cool. But i want a night shift job as well.
Still looking.Its not ambitious.
I just have things i want to buy.
And i want to save up for school fee's and stuff.
Leslie told me that he's signing on army for 10 - 15 years.
Should i do the same?
10 years... By the time i would be 28-29 already..
Am i really going to dedicate myself to army lifestyle?
Supposed to meet Gary. He's a changed person.
He said he wanted to talk to me?
But yet he dint pick my calls.
Forget it i'm tired.
I just want to be responsible.
For what i've said.For the things i've done.
Now i've made the decision to move on.
I'm not going back to the past.
Actually i do miss _ _ _ _ _ _.And i'm stilll interested in her.
But somehow i don't know whether i should or should not make a move.
I just want to be a guy you can rely on. A guy you can put your mind at rest and not worry about or over.
A boyfriend should be a guy who can keep his girl safe.
Physically and mentally sound.
But i'm not that advanced yet.
Not at that stage where i can provide security.
So thats why i'm not sure what i should do as well..
They said a heart matter you should follow your heart.
But sometimes you need your head as well.
Decisions are hard to make.But in reality you know whats the answer you've to choose.
Dont regret.This might be my regret of letting a chance go.
But inside i know its for my own good. For our own good.
As much as i want to have someone in my life.As much as i cant.
I'm just going to say sorry to myself and her.
Ravey blogged @ 9/25/2008 05:02:00 PM
Introduction
Hi everyone Ravey here x]]
My 1st post today so i did like to make it as perfect as possible.
But us being as human's.
We're flawed. But if everything was perfect?
Life would not be fun now would it?
Hahas.
Ravey's born on _ _ - 11 - 1990
Ravey likes Slacking , Stoning , Helping people , Listening to problems and solving them.
Ravey is a scorpio x]
Ravey Hates smokers,backstabbers,liars,Ungrateful brats,Spoilt kids and those annoyingly rich people who think money can solve anything in the world.
Ravey Loves black.
Ravey is a very complicated person and hates people using his logics.
Ravey wants to go back to school and study and be a normal kid.
Ravey wants to make more friends and find a loving companion x]
Ravey is a patient guy, o.0!
Ravey likes gaming + playing a fool.
Ravey has no particular interest really.
Ravey has no goal in life.
Ravey is not afraid of death.
Ravey has currently nothing to protect defend or live for.
Ravey just wants everyone to be happy x]]
:DD
Smile x]
Do onto others what you want others to do unto you.
JY everyone for the oncoming exams and do your best!.
Believe in yourself and just dont live in regrets.
LETS MAKE THE BEST OF WHAT WE HAVE. x]
Till another time .
Ravey signing out
Ravey blogged @ 9/25/2008 12:00:00 AM