Constellation - Scorpio

Monday, February 16, 2009

If you like her.
Tell her.
If she accepts you.
You're lucky
If she rejects you.
Move on.
Thats reality.

Probably something i'd nvr wanna face.

Today injured myself 3 times.
All on my right hand. -.-
Wtf how to hold knife like dat.

Ravey blogged @ 2/16/2009 09:23:00 PM

Sunday, February 15, 2009

No one is ever the same.
But there could be some that are similar.
Rules, Regulations, Laws.
Enforcers, Judge, Prosecutors.
We're only human.
We're the same.
What makes you think you're really so much better.
We're borned.
We grow.
Hopefully we become "GOOD" people.

less crap anyways.
Alone x]
Busy.
Troubled.
Sleepy.
Work sorta sucks.
But i'm reaching my "goal" ^^

Watched a few animes.
Would you watch that person smile?
Or would you be that persons smile?

Would you proclaim your love?
Or let your love be hidden?
I like you. You want something.
You have what you need.
You dont need more than that.
Its what your life is about.
But is that all?
Its stupid.
There are others.
But why. Is this one special one.
Sighs. I'm chasing dreams i cant catch.
I'm loving someone i cant be close to.
I'm longing for something i cant have.

Oh wells hahas.
Just updating for no reason.
The "broken parts" of me are trying to be fixed back together.
But. the broken parts are hurting the "healing" process.
And causing other areas to be injured that are healing it.
Whats more worth?

Ravey blogged @ 2/15/2009 08:15:00 PM

Monday, February 9, 2009

The need for someone.
The want for companion.
I think everyone longs for a loved one.
Someone who they dream of and love.
I cant accept reality.
Neither can i hide from it.
So i just have to go along with the flow.
For now? What can i really do?
Nothing at all -.-
Sighs its so harsh.
Life is so harsh.
Most people wont understand to politics and stuff happening around.
But when they really open their eyes.
Experience.
Maybe they'd know what i'm saying.
I'm not saying i'm very experienced and stuff.
But i just wish people would understand me.
Am i that hard to comprehend?
Or am i just so far away..

But its a responsibility i've to take
A task i have to face.
As an adult.
Its the reality i've to face.

I'll probably go for some matchmaking when i've time
x]
I want to believe there are others.
Just like me.

Ravey blogged @ 2/09/2009 09:24:00 PM

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Sometimes..
You wanna believe.
But than again..
When they hit you with the truth.
And tell you that the promises that they made
Were already broken.

Words are only words.
Anyone can say them.
Yes thats right. You were the one that told me.
You were the one.. That made me believe..
But now.. You've shattered me.
And violated yourself.
Tell me how should i react
Ya
Love is blind.
What about this "virginity" thing.
Its not impt anymore right?
I'm feeling so lost right now.
You're my pillar of moral and psychological support.
My ideal . My dream . I could probably say my everything .
But I was probably right. When i knew i could not hang.
I could not hold you
Grasp you. Or even get near you.
Its like standing here on this earth
Reaching for the stars.
But you'll never be able to catch them.
Lets not even say reach them.
Promises?
Naw i wont let myself listen to anymore lies.
I wont allow myself to care anymore.
Than again.. I wanna look towards god and ask him
This is fate right?
Time and again i'm questioning myself.
Whats my fate?
So many times..
I wanted to do things.
I want to believe and divert the attention.
Because i just wanted to know you better.
But you shunted me in a corner with your lies.
And made me believe in it.
This. Make believe person?
Or this person who made us.
I dont know how to express this.

Anyways to just cut the story short.
CHARMAINE.
I'm actually referring to YOU.
You gave me all the "help"
You were my ideal role model and stuff.
But now.. I guess you're right.
Love is blind.
Love hurts.
And it'll take time to heal.
And now
Its not just to heal..
Its to forget .
And totally let go of everything.

Char char.. "charmander"
Blame me for my stupidity.
Blame me for trying to love you.
Blame me for being your friend.
Make me remove you from my mind.
Love turns to hate.
I think.
Its time for me to just tell you.
But i dont dare.
But i wanna remove you from my mind.
So i'll do it..
On valentines day.
What kinda a friend am i?
Lying to you all the time.

Detest me .
Guess i was just loving an image.
Just loving a dream.

Ravey blogged @ 2/07/2009 10:24:00 PM

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

I'm glad somethings are changing.
I'm glad the some people are maturing.
I'm having alot of thoughts running through my head.
But so what?

Anyways.. I dont know which direction i should take.
Bought a book on love today.
Hahas almost finish it.
No time to read. But managed to read some of it.
Love has rules?
Naw its just that how we make our lives better by playing a role.
All we need is responsibility.
And abit of love to make us who we are.
A happy life.
A complete one.
Live it smiling.

Ravey blogged @ 2/03/2009 12:35:00 AM

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Recently having alot of dreams.
Dreams about my life.
My future life.
Dreams about my past.
Dreams about everything.
About Army dreams are also popping out about preparing and stuff.
Being responsible.
Being a person i'm supposed to be.

Love seems so 2nd hand already.
I somehow am so shattered over my dreams.
So many thoughts run through my head
Over so many things that have happened.
Maybe its a sign.
I cant remember actually
But it does not really matter..
I wish i could maintain my feelings like this.
So i wont hurt anyone.
And no one can hurt me

I dont know what i want.
But my dreams are starting to show me the way.
To prepare me.
To guide me along
Char. I like you. I might even say i love you.
But than again..
I guess i'm not that strong to tell you how i feel.
Hahas.. I'm just a person who did rather live a life.
With the regrets.
Than letting you know.
I think..

But than again.
My dreams will show me the way i feel.
I wont accept love randomly.
I wont accept the fact that i cant do it.
I'm sure i can.
I'll live up to my horoscope..
And be strong.

Once again i'm contradicting myself ^^

Ravey blogged @ 2/01/2009 11:18:00 PM