Sunday, March 29, 2009
I know i have not posted for agess!
But i'm currently serving NS.
And we're not supposed to bitch about it online anyways.
So than again who cares i wont say anything about it but i've been in there
For the past 2 weeks and i'm out
ALIVE.
Went shopping etc hahas. Got alot of crap.
I've alot of "new things" like my laptop and alot of crappy things.
Hahas so many things.
But i'm still having alot of problems.
Sighs. I kinda still feel bored.
I'm controlled by emotions and by the people who are taking me to another level
Of tolerance
Malays...
Childish and playful.
Knn seriously.
Sighs oh wells what to do.
I've to take the next step then.
I'm grateful to a few people.
Espicially to Char who's giving me alot of "support".
Hahas. though its not really support but yet she's there for me still
I'm so happy. Its not awkward.
Its still hanging.
Happy birthday to my ex yesterday.
Now that i finally know
That i've to move on.
And i can move on.
No matter what from now.
I'll move.
I'll train harder.
For a reason.
For myself.
Whatever that might come upon me.
I'll fight it to the fullest.
Ravey blogged @ 3/29/2009 05:17:00 PM
Monday, March 9, 2009
Personally i dont know why i havent blogged for so long.
But than again.
Does it really matter?
Whats the point of looking back.
Jolting down what has happened today.
Stoning. Repeating the cycle of stupidity each day.
I'm depressed somewhere.
Inside i already knew the answer.
Somehow somewhere i knew i could hide the answer.
I wish i could just take everything away.
But i know. Life is no something that whatever you want you'll get.
When ever you look at someone . Something . A memory .
It just seems to remind you of who you are. What you can do.
What you cant do.
What that has happened.
But so what?
Memories. Painful, Sad, Happy, Memorable.
But what more its all in the past.
Wells.
Get to the point.
Why would i blog without a reason.
Yes i know. We know. We always have havent we.
But knowing about it.
Knowing the answer. The possibility.
Naw what more can i have.
I like you. But we're so far.
I want you. But we're not possible.
I want to take care of you. But i'm not capable enough
How should i express myself?
What should i do.
No matter what i'm not good enough.
I've fears.Emotions that i cant get over.
Needs, Desires. Necessities and wants.
Charmaine and i knew.
She knew also. But yes we'll just let this pass.
maybe i'd let it pass. She'd forget.
But whats the point.
this is the way love works right?
The way its supposed to be.
If it was I. If i really loved someone.
I'd do the same.
But if something were to happen.
What'd i do?
Despite everything. Despite anything else.
I can't help myself for being helplessly in love with you.
Forgive me.
I wont harass you. I wont do anything.
Because i believe thats the kind of love i'd have to overcome.
To move on.
Ravey blogged @ 3/09/2009 06:24:00 PM