Saturday, May 23, 2009
I know i haven't blogged in ages.
I know i've not done anything big or achievable.
Than again i've made a "new" friend.
I know who i can rely on.
I know how much i can do and push myself.
Questions still revoles around me.
But than these are the answers i do not want to solve.
I can say that i've officially given up.
Because there's no point.
We're not meant for each other.
I dont want to make another mistake.
Another flaw.
I dont want to believe in something that only I can feel.
I dont want to be someone that only I can be.
I want to just follow the wind.
There's no point pushing so hard. Fighting for what you want.
Getting hurt. Hurting those around you. Why rush for the end?
When what thats most "valuable" necessary. Is the journey.
This journey. Which could lead you to many problems.
Might influence your life. And change it forever.
But than. You could still take control...
Charmaine. Thanks for everything. I'm not saying we cant be friends.
But sometimes i wonder to myself.
What am i looking for?
I'm not looking for friends.
I'm only looking for 1 person.
Just that only 1 person...
If you're not that person i cant.
Because i'm possessive.
I cant give up what i have and i cant handle more than what my mind comprehends.
I cant take the risk and chances.
I dont want to misinterpret and think so much.
Everyone around me are just. People who are around me.
Those who wants to stay stay.
Those who want to go go.
Those who trust you. Know you. And want to be friends with you for a "long term"
Will remain. By you. With you. Though not physically.
Distracted by our surroundings.
Does not give us the "right" to be distracted from ourselves.
Its okay to forget.But its not okay to not remember.
Its contradicting.
Life is contradicting.Esp when you're looking for answers.
I found answers. Which only leads to more problems.
Its a flawed equation. Probably.
Because we're all "flawed" we're all not the same.
Thats what make the questions and the answers so difficult to understand.
But we always do our best.
In our own way.
Sometimes the best thing to do is to let go.
Forget.
It hurts. It drags us down.
And it can stay forever.
But its not what that has happened.
Not even the past second matters already.
Because we're ourselves.
And nothing else matters if you're on your own.
Because. Everything you do is for yourself.
Glory. Wins Loses. Its all yours to keep.
Qualification. Brains. Reactions. Decisions. All make you who you are.
People come to you. Because they know that you're reliable.
If they dont come.
Do something .. You cant change them.
But you can only change yourself.
Ravey blogged @ 5/23/2009 09:57:00 PM