Saturday, June 27, 2009
Hey hey hey! Its been awhile.
A looonng while. Not that it matters.
Or that i really care or anyone does cas no one readsss.
So than again. Whats the point.
My EX messaged me saying that she dint hear from me for a "LONG" time.
Ya right. Hear from me for a LONG time when she herself deleted my number.
Crap why do i even bother.
But what bother's me is that i still think about her.
Why cant i just get over her -.-
So pathetic right?
I know these are just PATHETIC stupid WORDS.
But what can i say?
Whatever i say always has no meaning. People take it for "granted"
Why do i even bother caring ? Right?
So dont care dont bother. I cant throw somethings away.
Jeremy will handle the rest.
Sheesh. I'm about to lose control of my mind and body.
Am i really going to do something stupid?
And ruin my whole life?
This emptyness is driving me nuts.
I'm physically surrounded.
But I'm quiet. Silenced by the surrounding chatters.
Hahas. Anyways I've a few accomplishments. I've gotten my IPPT gold ^^
Tomorrow i've "camp" again for a week.
Gonna be hell. But life goes on.
I need a break.
I need you. But i cant have you.
Its better. Deleting everything everyone .
One by one. And i know its worth it.
No one is there.
And existed.
Probably it'll be my existance at the end.
That fades away into the abyss.
I'm mentally going nuts.
So many other oppurtunities.
Yet all just fades away within 1 week.
Its not about girls. Its about me.
I'm weak, stupid, dumb.
I've nothing.
So many terms. So many things.
But reality is like this
Only can wait..
Ravey blogged @ 6/27/2009 12:51:00 AM