Thursday, September 25, 2008
Reponsibilities and The past
Today i woke up early wanted to go down to NYDC to help WeiJie out
As i promised him i would help if i could.
But apparently IT WAS YESTERDAY.
Waste my time + my sleep.
Realised a few more things today.
Wells i don't wish to mention them here.
Anyways i've made a personal promise to myself.
I've to move along.
I'm leaving NYDC behind me.
I'm forgetting the past.
Its all over already.
Thanks Hilda for your cheesecake
Today went for my "CHEF" job interview.
Got the job. I'm starting tomorrow at 7am.
Four seasons hotel.But its all in the morning shifts only.
I'm cool. But i want a night shift job as well.
Still looking.Its not ambitious.
I just have things i want to buy.
And i want to save up for school fee's and stuff.
Leslie told me that he's signing on army for 10 - 15 years.
Should i do the same?
10 years... By the time i would be 28-29 already..
Am i really going to dedicate myself to army lifestyle?
Supposed to meet Gary. He's a changed person.
He said he wanted to talk to me?
But yet he dint pick my calls.
Forget it i'm tired.
I just want to be responsible.
For what i've said.For the things i've done.
Now i've made the decision to move on.
I'm not going back to the past.
Actually i do miss _ _ _ _ _ _.And i'm stilll interested in her.
But somehow i don't know whether i should or should not make a move.
I just want to be a guy you can rely on. A guy you can put your mind at rest and not worry about or over.
A boyfriend should be a guy who can keep his girl safe.
Physically and mentally sound.
But i'm not that advanced yet.
Not at that stage where i can provide security.
So thats why i'm not sure what i should do as well..
They said a heart matter you should follow your heart.
But sometimes you need your head as well.
Decisions are hard to make.But in reality you know whats the answer you've to choose.
Dont regret.This might be my regret of letting a chance go.
But inside i know its for my own good. For our own good.
As much as i want to have someone in my life.As much as i cant.
I'm just going to say sorry to myself and her.
Ravey blogged @ 9/25/2008 05:02:00 PM