Constellation - Scorpio

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Thursday's after draft.

Went to work today.
WAS SUPER SURPRISED when they said i was WORKING ALONE.
Lucky today quite easy x]]
HAHA's =/
Wells i sorta worked "hard" cas i'm working alone.
But super fun lei. Knowing what to do at my own pace making sure i'm doing everything correctly
And spending my time wisely so i don't have to do extra "work"
Ended at 4.
Had my shower as usual.

After that i went to job hunt.
Actually it was cas Lynn called me that's why i decided to.
Like someone call me o.0 den got motivation.
I went down to forum.
Secret recipe was Hiring.
Called Charmaine and talked to her.
She's studying v hard for O's all the best to her x]
Anyways she said just go enquire.
I did. They just gave me a form and ask me to fill in.
Than they said if they "need" me they'll call me
WTF? I working 1 job already den if i work another i need squeeze time.
Than if i gonna "dedicate" myself to sweet recipe and they cant give me my work schedule.
Than there's really no point is there? -.-
All the more they've crappy attire.

Whateva. =/
My computer has crashed using another one now.
Hopefully no one starts shouting at me.
I'm dam sian and tired.
Don't know what i wanna do anyways.
What should i do?
I wish i was working now.
Earning money instead of stoning at home dazing around wasting time away.

Char said: Your body can take it ma? Later sick how. o.0
Hahas. That's what i like about talking to her she "cares"
Not saying others don't just that sometimes its hard to really "care"

But when everything is wrong / hard or we get cornered.
We still have to move along and get find a way.
I've been visioning things again.
Sianzations.
Dreams, Visions, But no feel.
Lynn said follow your heart and find the way.
My heart already died...
I think it has.. No feel..
Stabb me someone. Den i wont have to go through the pain and suffering.
Hahas. Tomorrow is gonna be abit hectic.
I'll do what i can

I'm trying to forget.

But sometimes i just pass by some people.

They look so like her.
I just cant help but remember.

What am i doing stuck in this stupid scenario

She left leaving me with nothing to say.

If we are together again.
It'd be probably sympathy instead of love.

I understand that feeling.
That no love feeling.
The desire the want and the frustration being stuck.

We're all still young we want more "experience"
More time.
Just more of everything.

Maybe you do but i don't.

I was happy.
You were my happiness.

Its all gone now ain't it why am i still recking it up?

Because maybe i was serious and you just scarred me too badly?

But i know if I've another lover.
If i fall in love again.

I'll get over you.
But I'll never forget..

Hopefully only the happy times are remembered
But sometimes, its just the misery and sadness of getting betrayed.

And hurt by the person you loved the most.

Everyone seems to be changing and moving on.

Physically I'm moving.
Psychologically I'm moving bit by bit.

But still I'm stuck in this world of sadness.

What more can i say.

I'm just depressed.

Ravey blogged @ 10/02/2008 06:49:00 PM