Tuesday, November 4, 2008
another year ending
Its kinda amazing how i passed this year.
Its like so fast..
3 months with my 1st gf.
3 months getting over her.
and now already gotten over her but still having alot of memories and flashback
Probably that's the cause of my Serious STM now.
All the memories that are just pinning down my braincells with countless of thoughts of why.
Questions and questions.
Today felt like quitting straight while being "lectured"
I don't care already la i gonna tell them i work till this sat last day.
Enough i don't wanna do this anymore. -.- Though i really wish to cont.
And i want the income too.
Today the 2nd highest chef talked to me.
Overall highest chef.
Talking as if he knows me.
What rich family etc?
Than saying that its all my choice
Yea right. You can have the best of the best.
But is the best yours?
Its not mine.
Its my parents.
So how can you say that its mine.
Parents give me pocket money?
EXCUSE ME? I've been earning my own dough since like i left sec school?!
All the things i bought myself.
Everything i have is all i hardworking-ly worked to buy.
And they think my parents supported me with them?
Or they came from Santa?
Never mind i lazy argue with him.
I at work also dam sian one.
Lazy to talk even.
Everyone see me don't want talk to me also LOL
But that's a good thing.
Low profile eh?
Ended work at 430 cas of some crap and tml got 99% occupancy rate.
Zzzz HENG I OFF =X x]
Went shopping after work.
But could not find what i want.
Saw a few young girls around LOL of course its orchard.
Silly me.
Like never see girls b4 -.-
Deprived LOL.
Wanted to buy something to eat.
But decided to save and diet.
Hiaz what am i doing sia.
I feel so stoned and emotionless.
Heartless. I don't care anymore.
I occasionally look at her picture.
And smile in my heart.
But i know I'm just lying to myself.
Who am i kidding.
The person i want to see is you.
The person i wanna be with is you.
The person i dream of is you also.
Why do you have to be there wherever i go except in my physical daily life.
Even if you were.
Than what?
As if there would be a difference?
maybe?
hopefully?
potentially?
Dreamingly.
Ravey blogged @ 11/04/2008 06:57:00 PM