Sunday, November 9, 2008
Sunday ? Gone away.
For the record i dint talk to anyone today.
Except hilda for this morning which only lasted 3 lines.
And i slept my day away.
And played wc3 for a while and stoned.
Watched naruto and slept my afternoon and evening away.
Working tomorrow. Tuesdays Wednesday Thursday Friday and Sunday.
Sianzations.
When is this going to end.
Turmoil is alot of things are going on.
Financial problems .
New president from America.
The Bali bombers were executed.
And my English sucks -.-
I want to go back to school.
Improve myself instead of doing this shit.
People think that earning money and working is cool.
But its not cool.
Youngster have their goals and they need and want money.
They think working early to achieve their goals are sorta a good way.
But what would you do after you achieve ur materialistic goals?
And what would you do if you're working in a surrounding that you're all alone.
Living each day , Living it long and boring and just doing the same cycle under rules.
And under the high living standards of people of high "standards" or request.
People who are rich and have money.
Can buy anything they want live in "luxury"
But whats luxury to begin with a big house, nice looking things, fanciful cars.
When you go back home.
You see the 4 walls.
And you sit there.
Alone.
Wondering is this all my money can get me and buy me?
After working all day tiring myself out?
Its not cool.
You go to the bar alone.
Sit and buy a drink.
Waste money -.-
You go to orchard alone.
Walk down the street look at more materialistic things
Buy em and try to make urself happy
And probably distract yourself for a short period of time.
But the emptiness remains.
What we need in life?
"If i was emotionless."
"I would be nothing more than a tool."
But now i don't know is it desperation?
A dream, sadness, "love", or just being lost in no where.
You want something you try to achieve it.
You need something you do ur best to get it.
You have something you do your best to keep it.
You have more than something you appreciate it and don't abuse it.
You've nothing. You be happy with what you have.
Or at least try to?
* staring on into blank space *
But its something i want.
But its something i don't want to lose.
And its something i wont risk.
And its something that its not a decision of mine to make.
And its something that you never know if it would be gone tomorrow.
And she's something that.
makes me smile.
But she's probably something i'll never get.
Ravey blogged @ 11/09/2008 10:18:00 PM