Monday, December 1, 2008
1 of december. Ending of 2008 the final month.
A great day. Nothing went wrong.
Nothing cocked up.
Even my boss says he trust me 100%
x] Oh wells -.- Even though i can be a total kuku at times.
I still make things work out.
Today i messed up abit.
But i still pulled through using a split minded "tactic"
Stressful But than again when i think about it
WHO CARES ITS ALREADY OVER.
hahahahas.
Today i had this "debate" with myself.
Yeah thats why i always like to "argue with others"
If i see my ex again what would i do?
If i cant get what i want and need.
Than how?
I really wonder.
They're only words anyone can say them.
I'm only saying these. But inside i dont just say them
It feels. The emotions etc.
She said this once.
Making out is very common. So if its not common its not okay to make out?
Or what so ever? sometimes whenever i think back
It was really a stupid relationship.
But than again i really lost my mind.
Because of a personal promise.
A Love promise. A promise i make is a promise i keep but was broken because i dint have a real say in this.
It was her choice.
Than again. Thats why i dont wanna call the shots anymore.
If someone likes me. Or can say they love me.
What would i do?
Give them a chance? Or just love them as friends?
If i put myself in anyone's shoes.
Its great to be wanted and loved.
But to be alone?
Alone eh? Like me now?
I go to work go home w/o life and save all my money buying materialistic things?
Hiaz its not really what i need or want.
Get a life! How do i get one?
Its not like you just say i want a life.
I do the things i like.
But than again even doing things i like.
Its still on my own.
I cant get anyone to think like i do really.
Adults eh?
Only they really can understand.
Maturity level..
Youngsters just dont understand.
Guess i'm old than.
Hiaz. I dont know what to say la -.-
Talked to vic. PROBABLY going out with her tomorrow.
And HOPEFULLY HER FRIEND TOO
LOLOLOLOL><
When i think now.
My heart has no fixed answer. My eyes look and wander off.
I've no straight answer. I've no direct route.
I'm still alone and I've alot of directions to take.
I've alot of choices.
But the answers. The results are usually not mine to make. LOLS.
Because the things i do. Are not for myself.
But for those around me.
Hahahs hopefully. They'll be there for me.
As my friends. But apparently..
Nope.My phone lies there on the table.
Flat. No one messages me.
No one cares.Friends eh?
Ravey blogged @ 12/01/2008 09:01:00 PM