Saturday, December 27, 2008
Char char i want you so badly.
Sighs i haven blogged in days.
Not that i don't want to
Just don't have the mood and the energy to really just pull myself together and type me life.
After all its just a stupid cycle.
Anyways just to update what has been going on.
ON XMAS I WAS DAM PISSED
They said i was gonna get paid 950 an hour but yet i was paid my standard rate.
Oh wells. Never mind now i say i wan quit THEY PRETEND THEY DON'T KNOW!.
Even better guess they WANT AND NEED ME
Shit this man I'm being made use of and manipulated.
I really want to tell her.
I really want her to know.
And i've got my reservist letter.
I just want to see her smile and shout at me for being stupid
Just thinking about her makes me so happy yet depressed.
I dont want to lose her But yet i feel i'm not good enough.
I cant help feeling stupid.
For whatever i do in love.
Because i just cant fucking pull myself together for another try.
Its just something i fear. I love you so much i fear of getting the worse.
But if i love you so much.
Is this something i should hide from you?
Tell me what should a real lover do in a time like this?
I love you because of who you are.
I dont know why i love you.
But i'm glad i'm in love with you over my stupidity.
I'll tell you.
When i've the chance.
Wait for me.
I'll definately be there.No matter what.
Life at work is tiring.
Boring. Just nerve wrecking.
Sighs. Give me a break.
Ravey blogged @ 12/27/2008 09:54:00 PM