Monday, December 22, 2008
The wait of forfillment and maturity begins.
I wanted to post yesterday.
I had it up! BUT i forgot LOL..
Does not matter.
SYLVIE welcome back to SINGAPORE.
Okay its not really such a big deal ?
I think i've changed since i 1st known you.
But you've changed abit i think?
Sighs everythings changing even though i wish it wont.
Somehow no matter how i see things.
People grow and mature.
Thats great! But are they maturing in the right way?
In the right direction etc?
Sighs its kinda disappointing now.
Ignore everything around you.
Ignore everything that pisses you off etc.
Why do we have to suffer the fate others created for us?
Make a move.Why wont you voice yourself out!
Common just shout it out and slap them with ur crude remarks.
Sheesh SORRY lols Just that i'm having alot of confusion and thoughts.
Its frustrating.
So annoying.
Because i cant do anything about it.
Haha's my best is not good enough .
Because i cant give my best if i'm speeding through things
And getting things done at the same time.
Thinking of a certain someone now.
A certain someone i want to forget.
Would i forgive myself if i dont tell you?
Would i forgive myself if i let you go to some other guy?
Watching you walk down that asile.
It hurts somewhere.
But i'm forgetting i'm removing.
Ronald I dont wanna do this ya know. But its because you're my friend.
My "brother" thats why i'll still hanging on.
Just to let you know that i'll do anything for my friends.
Its hard but i'll breakthrough the hardships.
Christmas is coming.
I dont have the x'mas spirit.
I'm just loitering around the days Slogging my head off.
Myself off preparing for the days of hardship to come.
I want to give up.
SO many times and i'm still here.
Why cant i just let go?
Is it really that hard?
If we hold back.
We lose out.
But why why why!! WHY CANT I JUST DO IT?
Fear? Responsibility? Necessity?
Should i even go to work tomorrow?
Sheessh. I hate this.
The wait of forfillment and maturity begins.
Ravey blogged @ 12/22/2008 08:16:00 PM