Friday, January 30, 2009
The battle to give it all up?
Or the battle to fight for what you want?
Watched mobile suit gundam OO.
Yea yea some might say i no life or childish.
Watching anime so late into the night and stuff.
But sometimes when you really look into war
Even as they said.
Children can teach you things.
Children can remind you of things you've forgotten.
These are part of life that we learn.
Everything that we see and do.
We experience and learn.
Charmaine. Why do i miss you so much.
My friends are asking me about what i'm doing.
I dont know what i'm doing.
I wanna tell you.
That message its in my hands.
I've sent a message like that before.
But it ended up stuck in my outbox.
Why. Is this fate telling me i cant tell you?
Is it cant tell you YET?
Or cant tell you at all?
Char .. Just thinkin of how cute you are.
How carin you are.
I know its hard.
Life is hard.
Life for me? I made it hard.
Yes i've alot of regrets.
But what can i do now?
I only can sit by and wait.
Time is passing.
And i can only watch.
I wanna do more.
But i dont wanna let you go.
I wonder how you think.
And what you feel..
Okay i could not tell her.
I tried again.
But i've failed.
Maybe i should just find someone else.
Actually i'm trying to like someone.
Someone i can use to dispose my thoughts on.
But the thoughts.
And the feelings never match up.
And in the end i just have to bear the pain.
The heartache -.- Which i myself created.
Which i myself will endure.
But i'll be waiting.
No matter whatever happens to you.
I would really wanna love you.
Love is a painful thing.
Without it you long for it.
With it you detest it but some adore it with no regrets.
Sad and tragic.
But will be remembered.
Loving too much can lead to obsession
I'll probably have to give up for now.
And wait till i take on my studies again.
Where i'll find someone else right?
If not till than i'll be trying for you.
Ravey blogged @ 1/30/2009 04:21:00 AM