Thursday, January 15, 2009
Today i though to myself.
Its not about love. Its not about responsibilities.
Its about the real world and life.
I love you so much can you bear to let go?
We love each other so much but than we're not able.
I'm not able to support you.
I'm not able to fulfill my role as a husband.
I'm not able to be a loving husband due to overwhelming work
Financial problems.
I try, I want to be better i want to make life better.
I want you to be happy.
But i cant always be by your side.
I know. Love is not materialistic.
But Now. Without money.
What can you do?
Charmaine i just wish that i was not so dumb.
I wish that i'd taken the opportunity to study.
I wish that i'd have the chance to just let you know that deep inside i really miss you.
Think about you whenever i'm alone.
Just wonder if you're doing fine.
Hoping you'll keep your promises and just smile.
I know you've ur bad sides too.
But than again.
I'm such a lousy guy.
I try so hard.
But yet no matter how much i try.
It always does not seem to be good enough
I'm on the verge of giving up in everything.
I always have been.
Sometimes you can sit on a ledge
And just feel like pushing yourself out.
Dying?Or just landing on your feet.
I dont wish to go through heartbreaks and pains.
I know that we might be able to be something.
A relationship that can last.
Might last.
But no matter how i see things. I'm not good enough to help you.
To be there for you, with you.
To see you grow up and study.
To pick you up when you fall and hold you when you're feeling down.
I really want to be that person in your eyes.
But In life i know. I cant. Maybe i can?
But Char. I wish i knew how to tell you.
I wish i knew how you feel.
i wish i know alot of things.
I just want you to know
There's a stupid guy out there
Dying to love you.
But he knows.
He should not.
End of the day?
I've just wasted another day away.
Ravey blogged @ 1/15/2009 09:27:00 PM