Constellation - Scorpio

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Sometimes..
You wanna believe.
But than again..
When they hit you with the truth.
And tell you that the promises that they made
Were already broken.

Words are only words.
Anyone can say them.
Yes thats right. You were the one that told me.
You were the one.. That made me believe..
But now.. You've shattered me.
And violated yourself.
Tell me how should i react
Ya
Love is blind.
What about this "virginity" thing.
Its not impt anymore right?
I'm feeling so lost right now.
You're my pillar of moral and psychological support.
My ideal . My dream . I could probably say my everything .
But I was probably right. When i knew i could not hang.
I could not hold you
Grasp you. Or even get near you.
Its like standing here on this earth
Reaching for the stars.
But you'll never be able to catch them.
Lets not even say reach them.
Promises?
Naw i wont let myself listen to anymore lies.
I wont allow myself to care anymore.
Than again.. I wanna look towards god and ask him
This is fate right?
Time and again i'm questioning myself.
Whats my fate?
So many times..
I wanted to do things.
I want to believe and divert the attention.
Because i just wanted to know you better.
But you shunted me in a corner with your lies.
And made me believe in it.
This. Make believe person?
Or this person who made us.
I dont know how to express this.

Anyways to just cut the story short.
CHARMAINE.
I'm actually referring to YOU.
You gave me all the "help"
You were my ideal role model and stuff.
But now.. I guess you're right.
Love is blind.
Love hurts.
And it'll take time to heal.
And now
Its not just to heal..
Its to forget .
And totally let go of everything.

Char char.. "charmander"
Blame me for my stupidity.
Blame me for trying to love you.
Blame me for being your friend.
Make me remove you from my mind.
Love turns to hate.
I think.
Its time for me to just tell you.
But i dont dare.
But i wanna remove you from my mind.
So i'll do it..
On valentines day.
What kinda a friend am i?
Lying to you all the time.

Detest me .
Guess i was just loving an image.
Just loving a dream.

Ravey blogged @ 2/07/2009 10:24:00 PM