Sunday, August 23, 2009
next phase OVER
YESS.
Platoon prof test is OVERR.
YES!! and alot of other things are yet to come.
YES! We're gonna be the best again? I think i hope.
Actually it does not matter.
Somehow i don't know whats wrong with my mind set.
Here i want.
There i don't want.
Then i have.
But I'm not satisfied.
We're humans. We've feelings.
I want. I need. I desire.
I do my best. I try my best. I work my hardest.
I play my part. For what?
I don't know I'm jealous.
But i know . Somehow, Someway, Sometimes.
Probably never will i be a perfect person.
There's nothing perfect.
Only BEST. There's nothing perfect.
maybe to you yes.
But coming to a debate.
Whats necessary in life are always imperfect.
But its how we see it that makes it perfect.
You'd be the perfect person in my life.
But you'll never be the one.
I don't know why.
I want to have a chance in life.
But I'm only known as a failure.
Somehow losing is just part of my life.
I cant win.
I cant be at the top.
Who wants to be with a loser.
A dumb person. A person who can only be there.
Physically. Soundly. But not being there in any other state that can ensure.
Security.
I'm weak. Powerless. Brain dead?
I'm poor. Alone. Empty.
I'm everything negative.
What positive and good points do i have?
I really don't see anything rewarding.
I'm just a support character.
A stepping stone.
A person who does his "best".
Only to fail and get throw away after satisfaction.
Somehow. Who really does enjoy being with me?
Probably nobody.
I'm not being negative.
I'm stating the facts.
I don't know is it me?
My attitude? My mentality? Or my background.
that keeps everything so unstable.
None the less.
I wont make a stupid decision.
I wont hurt anyone.
I wont let people who "respect" me down.
I will never forget.
I will never regret.
The things that I'll do.
Decisions are the things you need to make and do.
Make a good one.
And live it to the fullest.
Time is being wasted.
18 years on this earth.
18 years of food water and resources.
And nothing has been contributed back.
How many more years till i finally become useful?
Helpful. A part of society?
Is this fate or destiny?
Or is this my own stupidity and loneliness?
I just want to find someone there.
Ravey blogged @ 8/23/2009 12:07:00 AM