Thursday, August 27, 2009
Okay we'd get the best platoon.
Sian i reported sick once den in the end cannot go for nights out.
Why must i do the "best thing"
But yet get this kinda treatment.
Anyways they let me out for awhile though.
^^ Guess i've built quite alot of trust among my commanders.
Yesterday went for chalet at NSRCC.
WTF 1 night 300++?
Does not matter. ^^ Its a great place.
Though its not really good enough to accommodate so many people?
At least to me.
God dammit. They're so fucking filthy and messy.
Dam sick -.-
Irresponsible fucks.
At least some people know how to clean.
Least i know that i'm the only one feeling awkward.
Pondering about alot of things b4 i go back to camp.
24/08/2009-
On the way back to camp "thoughts/mind waves"
-If all i can do is watch. I'd admire you from the sideline
And give you what i can.
What more can i give you when you seem like you've everything you need?
When people have a choice.
Naturally they'd pick the best.
To be the best you've to have to best?
Unfortunately i cant stand at the top with you.
I don't deserve it either.
Still i'd want to see you.
Admiring what i love.
A passion, A dream.
23/08/09
-Somehow i'm remembering.
Not really what i want
Why is it always about the past that people now adays emphasising on now.
And not how we should gradually move on towards the future?
Moving slowly is better than not moving at all
The question is how do we know if we're really moving
When every time we feel different.
Everything can just change instantly
Being stuck physically does not goes the same for everything
Mentally challenged and tested against time, surroundings and similarities.
How does a trapped person remain positive?
How does one take its worse and say its okay.
Getting discriminated and to forsake happiness.
Just because there was no choice.
Overwhelming questions.
Scarce answers
Its like being on a roller coaster.
You just keep going up and down.
Along the same way.
The same up's and downs everyday.
And end up at the same end everyday.
Got to go liao.
Somehow what we do.
What we think.
What we decide to do.
Really changes us.
I should really start being firm.
And "overpowering"
I need to be decisive.
And take the responsibilities into my hands.
Not taking what people not want.
And just laugh it off.
-I'm feeling.
Ravey blogged @ 8/27/2009 07:49:00 PM